I never get tired saying I L O V E you towards you because I meant it!
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Why? Why is life so unfair? Is love an important word in a guy's dictionary or is it status that makes them feel proud? Just why is love so unfair? Why is it that when you're so in love with someone, that particular person just doesn't seem to care? Just what is their reason? Before courting, he will do whatever you say, he will always be by your side, you will always come first before everything? Why is it that before the two hearts becomes one, life is so wonderful. Full of laughter, no tears. How, I wish that moment will always occur. Doesn't matter if we're already together or not. When they are just in love but nt in serious relationship, his love towards you is like; LoveBeyondSoul. But, when we're now together, everything is unpleasant to look at or even to just hear about it. Sometimes we (girls) tends to do stupid stuff without thinking it's because we want your attention. I'm not obessed with your attention, just show me some care. Seriously, it hurts to actually keep everything deep down, without sharing or even having someone to talk to. Burying all the thoughts doesn't actually make one feel better. Sooner or later, we will burst, just feel like bursting out all the stupid fucking thought out of us. Once we reach that point, it's almost the same as eruption of a volcano. There. There, they will start showering us with their sweet words, making us feel pacified. It's not enough, seriously talking. I'm not easily pacified with guys sweet-talk. I may look flattered but sorry to say that, that is not how I feel. Sometimes, I give in eventhough it's not my fault, it's because I LOVE YOU. I cherish you but, DO you? Think. I never controlled you. Eventhough I'm your girlfriend... I just think that, I don't uphold enough rights to tell you off. I know, who I am & obviously I know tht I'm only able to advice you, if you ever tries or tends to do something bad. I know where I stand. But, do you even care about me? I'll never wanna let you go. Never do. Now that I'm with you, every tears tht trickle down is for you. That show's howmuuch I love you. Not every women is able to cry out of a guy's sweetness. Tell me, eversince I 'm with you, how many times have I cried? Never ever say again tht, 'Maybe I'm nt the one for you.' That sentence hurts me alot. Silence never solve anything. I love you, don't you know? Can't you see. I can't affod to lose you, that I swear. I meant every word I type here. Do you even love me. I know that's bold of me to ask you that but I really want to know your answer. Everyone's born imperfect. I admit I have my weakness. I may not be perfect but I put in 100% effort to change myself for the better.
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What would you feel if someone you really love didn't link you when they've a blog? And they only do so when they are ask to do so. What would you feel? I'm suure you would feel that you doesn't carry any weight in their heart. And when they're ask to do so, I'm sure you will question them. And what would you feel when they say, Ohh, I forgot. Sorry. Sad, I bet? Maybe to them, it's just a small matter. It doesn't matter laa anyway. But, I'm sorry. I'm nt that type of person. This incident suure do question me alot. Truthfully, I don't want to be hurt. I had enough, that guys are always trying to make me cry. They don't know, the reason why we cry. The reason is that, we care, we love, we can't afford to lost that person. What do you want me to do, to make you being able to feel that I really am in love with you. I'm speechless. I really don't know what more you want me to do. I've already done what I'm able to. It's up to you, now. Tell me how you feel. I hate crying. I really, really do. Please, please stop making me cry. Or tell me that it's all worth it that I cried for you. I had enough of all the rainy days that I've gone through, please for once let me go through a sunny day, a day full of laughter. Maybe on th 28? For once, break through out of the bitterness that you've once give me. Now, that you have a blog, have you ever even post about me? Or even just to put 'Baby' in any of your lines. I'm utterly dissappointed. I never doubt you but, it's like I'm really too much into you. No replacement.
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But, I'm willing to let you go if that's the only option to see you smile. To see you happy. I'm more than willing to do so. It's not that I don't love you, it's just that I see... You want to be free, to be single.. To have your own life back. That's what I feel. Just what is happening? I've no other ways to tell you, how deeply I am in love with you. You judge. I'm willing to let go you BUT never am I willing to let go the love that I've experience when I'm with you. Though it's sometimes sweet or bitter... I'll endure it while I still can. I miss you, I really do. Love me the way you use to love me. This might be the longest post I've ever wrote for you. Sincerely, I meant what I say. I really love you, dear. Love is a strong word as it's got an ability to drop us down but, you have the ability not to let that happend. Ever happend! I think I've wrote what was once burried deep down. You'll be the judge. I really am tired putting a stong front in front of you & I'm mooore tired when I've to put a fake smile just to see you smile.
I really LOVE you, Dear.
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