Can life not get any complicated?
Friday, January 15, 2010 4:06 PM
Time check, 0810. Idk why, I'm awake so early & updating. I guess sleep early means wake up early. Those who text me yesterday, I'm so sorry that I didn't reply or pick up your calls. I was fast asleep. -_- I'm easily irritated nowadays, which I don't know why. Life seems meaningless sometimes. I feel lonely sometimes even when I'm with my love ones. Somehow, I'm more of a blur sotong as days go by. Hmm. Which, I always wonder why. Seriously idk why. Maybe you have the answer? I feel so insecure. Maybe it's because of you? I feel like a burden to you. Maybe you're the cause? I feel like a nusiance to you. Maybe it's all about you? I don't blame you 100% but that's how I feel. I just feel like running awaay, running awaay far from you.
Whatever it is, forget about it. I have my peoples to cheer me up when you're not there.
It's one after another. Why? Problems occurring one after one after another. When can it possibly stop? First my lovelife, school mates & now my #2 bestfriend's. About lovelife? Hmm, I'm transparent to him, maybe. I just come & go. I'm att but i don't look like I am. Agree? School mates? Hmm, gossip-mongers. *sigh* I really dont understand this people. Never talk about people, never spread lame rumors cannot? Akways trying to create problems. Why? You tell me why laa? You started it & we have to go through it! Fcuuuk laa you?! Go tape your gigantic BIG fatass mouth, so you'll shut up & stop spreading rumors! Now about #2 bestF. I'm sorry if I cause any misundertanding between you & girlfey? Girlfey; I won't snatch him awaaaay. He's yours. Forever. That I swear. No matter how EVIL I may be... I won't snatch something that belongs to someone. I know how it feel when your love one is being snatched away. Pardon my mistakes. I'm sorry but I'll make it clear. Between him & me? We're just friends. :D
Ohh yes, Naaah, laaast long okaay. Ily deaaar!
Maybe the best way to solve it..
Let's just be friends.
Why hang on when the love is no longer there?
I love you, yes.
Who doesn't love their boyfriend?
But, I feel like you're hiding something from me.
Which is not a nice affection.
When we meet you tend to walk further than me?
Why? You tell me.
I don't hate you, NO not at all.
The love is still there for you but how about you?
I really dont know.
If you think I have a replacement?
You're wrong. Totally wrong.
I miss-ed the way you text me, coaxing me.
Nagging at me, telling what's right & what's wrong.
I miss-ed talking on the phone with you.
Making a fuss about who's correct & who's wrong.
I miss walking with you.
When you caressingly placed your hand in mine, not wanting to let go.
I miss-ed hugging you.
Where you gave me so much warm, you called Bearhug.
I miss-ed kissing you.
Where you lips touch mine & we're both in our own world.
I miss-ed your, imy & ily text msg.
I miss-ed the way we used to sit beside each other.
Holding onto one another's hand in the bus.
Not wanting to let go.
Not wanting to let go.
Baby, IMY.
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